Haunting

I had the realization tonight, that I am horrified of running into my ex-husband. As much as I try and pretend everything is okey-dorey... things ended with him telling me he never wanted to see me again or talk to me again. Now, it has been two and a half years since we split up. And we have never run into one another randomly yet. But I feel like, living in the same town, it is only a matter of time. And then what?

"Oh, hi there. how are you? hope you have gotten over some of you issues. I know i have been working on mine. no hard feelings by the way,right?"

Or do we just do an awkward glaring/glancing thing, and not speak?

Or do I go ninja and karate chop him?

See my dillema?

Maybe I should leave town... I keep telling everyone how much I want to... that should eliminate some of the anxiety, eh? Or would it only make it increase with the decreased, and therefore dramatically increased chance that we would run into each other randomly. I mean, seeing him at a local coffee shop is much more probable than running into him at the foreign [perhaps Europe-bound?] airport as he is arriving and I am leaving the country... So in some parallel universe, the mere fact that it is less probable begs the question of making it more probable, just so I trip out wondering how/why the universe fucks with me so...

Or I could just let it go...

Ha!